I did it. I registered.

I registered for my first 5K in about 10 years.  I used to run a few 5Ks here and there before I had kids, seems like in another life.  That was many pounds ago. 

I registered for the Louisiana Marathon 5K/ Fun Run.  We'll see how fun it is.  I have a few things I need to do to maximize my training.  First up, I need to map out a dedicated route to run.  I just take off and end up trying to think too much while I am running.  Do I turn here? here?  How long will it take me to get back?  Will I get back?  All questions I am battling in my head which equals too much thinking.  I plan on doing that today, possibly.  I logged into daily mile.  Something I haven't done since March.  Ouch.  I thought for sure that website was gonna keep me motivated.  Strangely enough, I have not been "logging" my new found fitness.  I thought that surely would be my motivator for continuing.  I'm actually kinda glad I have jumped into it "unplugged".  The trainer is great, she's great at motivating me.  I also find myself not wanting her to think I'm weak.  I think that's a plus:)  I think I found a great fit for me and that definitely makes a difference.  I haven't told her yet.  It was a kinda spontaneous thing I did.  My endurance has definitely increased and I think I can manage 3+ miles of running come January.  Or at least, I hope I can:)

Ahhh dreaded pictures, that's what I need to do.  I know, I know.  No pain, no gain.  Pictures would definitely be painful.  They are great motivators though.. this I know.  I really need to get some taken.  I want to be able to do some before/ after shots.  My trainer believes in muscles.  Not just looking like an athlete but being stronger, as well.  I love this.  She has made me realize I have muscles in places I had long forgotten about. 

What I will do now, is show you a few of the pictures that started my body image self loathing.  A few months ago, in the summer, we had family pictures taken.  The pictures are absolutely beautiful of the hubby and kids.  Of me, not so much.  When I was trying to find something to wear, I remember thinking, I just want to be comfortable.  Well, that's what I was, and that's definitely the way I looked. 

  (Thanks Mustard.Seed photography. Lindsey is awesome.  The pictures are gorgeous.)

See.....

Fat.  I mean, not hideously so, but definitely larger than I picture myself.  Face, a little too full.  Arms, without definition.  Belly, looking pregnant with #3. 

So, I am a month, give or take, into my transformation:).  I haven't taken recent pictures, but I hope to soon.  I am feeling better- much better.  My stomach is a tad less bloated:) and more importantly I am more conscious of my health.  I have drastically reduced soft drinks in my life and unnecessary sugars.  Sugar is the devil, I do believe this.  It also brings out the devil in my children.... so this I have limited as well. 

I would love to hear other stories or links to other blog mommies trying to battle life, fitness, kids, etc.....So, come on peeps.  Let's share some inspiration.....